in between

gw capek sama semuanya !!!!!!!!!

badan gw pegel2 semua nih……………..
kenapa sich gak sakit aja sekalian biar gw bisa istirahat???????

I hate her
cause she moves the butterfly in my stomach
makes my heart beat faster
and my mind goes blank

I hate her
cause she makes me become a dumb
she stays in my every thought that
i couldn’t think anything but her

I hate her
cause she makes me feel so blue
missing her whenever
i can’t reach her

I hate her
cause she’s so d@mn gorgeous
that i can’t take my eyes off her
whenever she’s around

I HATE HER SO MUCH !!!!!!!!

* kata sambutan pertama sbg ketua JJ Club

"So we meet again!" and I offer my hand
All dry and english slow
And you look at me and I understand
Yeah it’s a look I used to know
"Three long years… and your favourite man…
Is that any way to say hello?"
And you hold me… like you’ll never let me go

"Oh c’mon and and have a drink with me
Sit down and talk a while…"
"Oh I wish I could… and I will!
But now I just dont have the time…"
And over my shoulder as I walk away
I see you give that look goodbye…
I still see that look in your eye…

So dizzy Mr Busy - Too much rush to talk to Billy
All the silly frilly things have to first get done
In a minute - sometime soon - maybe next time - make it june
Until later… doesn’t always come

It’s so hard to think "It ends sometime
And this could be the last
I should really hear you sing again
And I should really watch you dance"
Because it’s hard to think
"I’ll never get another chance
To hold you… to hold you… "

But chilly Mr Dilly - Too much rush to talk to Billy
All the tizzy fizzy idiot things must get done
In a second - just hang on - all in good time - wont be long
Until later…

I should’ve stopped to think - I should’ve made the time
I could’ve had that drink - I could’ve talked a while
I would’ve done it right - I would’ve moved us on
But I didn’t - now it’s all too late
It’s over… over
And you’re gone..

I miss you I miss you I miss you
I miss you I miss you I miss you so much

But how how many times can I walk away and wish "If only…"
But how many times can I talk this way and wish "If only…"
Keep on making the same mistake
Keep on aching the same heartbreak
I wish "If only…"

But "If only…."
Is a wish too late…

* mistakes i’ve always made…………………

aku masih tetap dengan langkahku sekarang
berjalan mencoba mencari ujung pelangi
tempat dimana dia berada
dengan segala keindahannya

mencoba mendaki walau
untuk kemudian jatuh menghujam
terus menatap sosoknya
yang tak terjangkau olehku

mungkin hanya disana…..
aku bisa mengatakan betapa indahnya kamu
aku bisa melepas semua keraguan dihatimu
hanya disana……..

di ujung pelangi

* sesuatu yang datang di hati, walau coba diingkari, ternyata gw gak bisa

i know that i’m just dreaming
wishing something will come upon us
standing still, not moving forward
coz i don’t wanna go back……
it will never come
it’s just an imaginary moment
that will never come
but i’m still hoping……
it would be enough for me
if she would say ‘hai’ to me
i would be enough
if could say……………..

*makin lama gak ada kerjaan, makin gila nih gw

kalau saja waktu bisa berhenti,
akan kuhentikan waktu dimana
aku bisa terus memandangmu
mendengar gelak tawamu
dan ikut tersenyum melihat candamu
walau kutahu itu tak mungkin terulang
hanya keajaiban yang bisa
membuatku dekat denganmu……………..

*olah raga hati tuh capek juga  ya …………. hiks

Maybe now’s a good time / Peut-?tre, est-ce le bon moment
For me to leave your life / Que je quitte ta vie
Now that you have found / Maintenant que tu as trouv?
What you thought you’d never find / Ce que tu pensais ne jamais pouvoir trouver
I’ve no sense of belonging / Je n’ai plus aucun rep?re
When it comes to your world now / Dans ton monde d’aujourd’hui
I feel I’d be no trouble / Je crois que tu n’aurais aucun probl?me
For you to live without / A vivre sans moi
Would it really be such a loss for you
If we could agree to leave it now?
You say that I’m your best friend / Tu dis que je suis ton meilleur ami
But you really know who is / Mais, au fond de toi, tu connais la v?rit?
I’m just an ex-boyfriend / Je ne suis qu’un ancient amant
You must think of less and less / Auquel tu dois penser de moins en moins
I don’t know if I know what I’m doing / Je ne sais pas si je sais ce que je fait
I just know how I feel / Je sais seulement ce que je ressens
I know that you don’t mean to / Je sais que tu ne le fais pas expr?s
But you can get me down still / Mais parfois tu peux me rendre triste
Would it really be such a loss for you
If we could agree to leave it now?
Serait-ce une grande parte pout toi
Si nous nous mettions d’accord pout tout quitter maintenant?

( Trembling Blue Star  - To Leave It Now)

* ditemukan waktu ngubek2 tumpukan koleksi cd mp3, nadanya catchy cuma gw gak tau arti lirik yg bahasa perancis, ada yg bisa gak? gw sich curiganya sama kayak lirik bhs inggrisnya

And then she smiled
Just for fraction of a little while
And everything was warm again inside
She’s got a sunshine smile
The kind that warms up the corners of my cold room
She’s got a sunshine smile
The kind that makes you forget again

Sunshine smile
Sunshine smile
Sunshine smile
Sunshine smile

And then she said
"If I’m going to be someone else
I’d rather be somebody else with you"
That’s exactly how I felt to her
How does it feel?

The way I feel
Doesn’t feel quite real
How does it feel to feel?
She’s got a sunshine smile
The kind that warms up the corners of my cold room
She’s got a sunshine smile
The kind that makes you forget again

Sunshine smile
Sunshine smile
Sunshine smile
Sunshine smile

And then she said
"If I’m going to be someone else
I’d rather be somebody else with you"
That’s exactly how I felt, uh-huh
How does it feel to feel?

And for that one short while
It was as if she’d only just learned how to smile

( adorable - sunshine smile )

* eventhough it won’t go any further, i’m quite happy with it

mendadak suatu euforia muncul, tanpa sebab, tanpa alasan…gak tau kenapa tiba muncul suatu perasaan senang dan bahagia di hati gw. Padahal gak ada kejadian yang istimewa ataupun kejadian biasa-biasa aja yang bisa bikin gw seneng. Hari ini hanya ada hal yang rutin, bangun pagi, subuh, sarapan, berangkat kerja, training (since it’s thursday), gak ada yang special. Kalopun ada yg gak rutin tadi ya gw ngeliat ada kecelakaan lengkap dengan korbannya yg masih bersimbah darah. Tapi itu semua bukan alasan buat gw ngerasa kayak gini.
sekarang semua terasa indah, tapi kenapa ya?????